Where Are You Spring?!!

People come into our lives and then leave us way too soon, it seems. I thought I had finally gotten to a point where I could except my maw-maw's death. I guess I was wrong. The whole thing was just too tragic. There was a gass leak in her house and it exploded. It happened almost two years ago. It still seems like yesterday. I was finally dealing with it pretty well, I thought. Easter was so incredibily hard for me. Easter was my favorite holiday at Maw-maw's. I come from a really big family and every Easter we would go over to Maw-maw's for the day. All of the adults would go out in the front yard after lunch and hide eggs for us kids. I haden't hunted eggs in years but I loved sitting on that big front porch and watching all the other kids, a new one or two added every year or so. I can still hear their laughter and all the excitement that came with finding an Easter egg. I love Spring. It don't seem to be coming fast enough for me this year. We've had a couple of really nice days lately, but now it's gotten cold again. It was cold Easter Sunday. I hated it. My family spends Easter Sunday at the church where my grandparents attended, in the fellowship hall. I hate it. We go there for Thanksgiving too. That don't bother me so much. Well, I have to cut this short, I have the kids today and they need me right now.

It's been a long time

Well dear readers, it has been a long time since my last post. There's so much going on right now in my head, not sure just how to express it all.

I guess I've gotten used to everyone always coming to me for advice. I like helping people figure things, I like fixin things, makeing everything better. That being said, I've found myself in the middle of a mess I can't fix or make better, I'm afraid. To be honest my heart is broken tonight. There's this little girl, we'll call her "Stella", she's one of my youth kids. I'm a youth leader in my church. I don't know if I have mentioned that. Well, in my years as a leader/teacher, I have come across quite a few kids with all kinds of needs. I'm useually ready and willing to help in whatever way I can. Stella's problems are quite different from the normal ones that are brought to my attention, though. I just want so desperately to help this poor child.

Anyway, I guess I just needed to get this out. Thanks for listening. I'll post more soon. Please pray for this little girl.